Published: March 18, 2013
Publisher: Atria Books
Acquired: Digital copy
Sydney Blake is an aspiring musician and she has everything in life a twenty year old could ask for; a job, a handsome boyfriend, and her best friend. She finds out on her birthday that her boyfriend and her best friend are cheating on her behind her back. What a birthday gift. She's homeless, jobless, and everything in her life came crashing down. If it weren't for Ridge Lawson.
Ridge Lawson is a computer dude who works at home and writes songs for Sounds of Cedar, the band that he and his brother formed. He's born deaf but that didn't stop him from writing music. He became enamored by Sydney and her lyrics. Sydney became enamored by his melody. A perfect combination.
This book has given me so many feels that I read this twice and I'm still in a pool of feels. This book is utterly beautiful.
There are so many good things about this book that I don't know where to start. Their music is hypnotic. To them, music is more than just lyrics and melody. It's feelings. Sometimes feelings are so confusing and the more confusing it is, the more depth it has. This book is written in alternating point of views so I get to see Sydney's side and Ridge's side. Which makes this more lovable and more heartbreaking to read.
Ridge proved himself that even if you're deaf, that doesn't mean you can't create wonderful music. I get so teary eyed whenever Ridge opens up about his past. He's more than a handsome guy with a guitar. I love how he is so loyal. Too loyal for his own good even.
Their love story is a forbidden one. For one reason, Ridge has girlfriend, Maggie, whom he has been with for five years. A five year relationship is not something you simply throw away. Maggie is just as sweet and gentle like Sydney.
"Having her so close feels as though we’ve created our own personal space and nothing from outside our world can make its way in, and nothing from inside our world can make its way out."
The thing is, Ridge loves both of them. Which is not a bad thing or a good thing too. My heart was all over the place when they kissed. They fought their way through their attraction with each other. Mainly for the reason, that Sydney didn't want to be in a situation that she would be the 'other woman' and Ridge would be cheating and Maggie would be the poor girlfriend who didn't know anything.
“There isn't a doubt in my mind that we could be perfect for each others life, Sydney. It's our lives that aren't perfect for us.”
Sydney portrayed Ridge as her 'maybe someday'. Hoping that Ridge and her would be together but at the same time, she doesn't want to jeopardize his relationship with Maggie.
“There will never be a maybe someday.”
You can't hate someone in this book. It's just pure emotions. And it's real. AS REAL AS FALLING IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE AND IT HURTS TO DO SO.
“Nothing in my life has ever felt so good yet hurt so achingly bad.”
I don't know how I survived this book. I mean, I was rooting for Sydney and Ridge but at the same time I don't want Ridge to break up with Maggie because I love Maggie as well. I mean, you can't really dictate who you fall in love with. No matter how to some people it's illogical. You just can't. I understood everything. I understood how Sydney hurts when she sees Ridge and Maggie. I understood Ridge that his heart is torn in two and he never wants to hurt either of them. I understood how in the face of true love, if you love someone, you will find a way back to love.
The ending, IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL ENDING I HAVE EVER READ. IT WAS UTTERLY HYPNOTIC.
Beat, beat, pause
Beat, beat, pause,
He's moving to the sound of my heart
She loves music. LOVE music. Namely The Avett Brothers, Lumineers, Pink, Eminem. She is addicted to Diet Pepsi and could tell you in a taste-test which restaurant it came from. She gets stoked whenever she gets a message from Goodreads saying she has a new friend request. She wrote the Slammed Trilogy (Slammed, Point of Retreat and This Girl), Hopeless, Losing Hope, Finding Cindrella and Ugly Love.